It’s been over three months since my last post. I really don’t know where to start, or what to say except, I’ve missed blogging.
So many things have happened for the past three months. My children and I caught the flu-like cold in February – it was so mean that we’re in bed for over two weeks. My husband being away, and it took a lot longer for me to recover. Then my youngest daughter’s 5th birthday in the very beginning of March which consumed my time and energy to plan a party for her.
Then, the earthquakes and tsunami hit Japan… It was exactly two months ago… I still can’t believe the extent of the disaster that rocked Japan, and how many people have suffered still today. My parents still live in Tokyo, and they live in the constant fear of aftershock and radiation from Fukushima Nuclear Plant. I’m concerned about their safety on daily basis…
With having said that, I must admit that I had been depressed. I know I’d been depressed for quite some time. No, I don’t need to see a doctor nor need to take medications, but when you know, you know, and I know I was depressed. How?
Well, when you stop doing what you love, that’s a sure sign of depression. For instance, if you stop blogging, that’s one. Then when you barely go to the gym to work out, that’s another reason because blogging and working out are two of my favorite things to do.
Instead of heading to gym after dropping of my daughters at their schools, I went straight back home and slept. It’s scary routine… Yes, I was fully functional 90% of time after I pick up my youngest daughter from school at noon, and I have been a good mother, but I didn’t like how I was spending my time in the morning. It did take a long time, however, to realize what I was doing would only stop me from doing the things I love in my life, and eventually my daughters’. It’s very scary.. .
I’m glad that I’ve been doing so much better for the past few weeks. My therapist has also been a great help. I’ve tried to keep myself busy in the morning; going to breakfast with friends or go to gym, or running errands instead of doing it in the afternoon. Now I would like to get back to blogging. I know I don’t want to give too much pressure, and I think I need to take one step at a time. I hope I can do this…